Sybelle
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Post by Sybelle on Nov 12, 2006 1:35:41 GMT 1
I sat at the piano in my VIP room. I was playing the Appassionata. I had sent word for Armand to join me so that we could talk. It had been awhile since he and I had actually had some down time to talk. I missed him dearly and I wanted to know how he would feel now that I had moved on. I know now that he was never really intersted in me to begin with that his whole heart belonged to Daniel. Even though it made me sad to know this...I still loved Armand.
I sighed heavily wondering if he would come meet me?
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Post by Armand II on Nov 12, 2006 2:18:33 GMT 1
It never failed to irritate me. Every time I attempted to go to a bar, for whatever reason, I was given 'the look'. The dubious look, as the man at the door glanced from my ID up to my face, and back at my ID again. Sometimes, they would call someone else over to look and they would discuss me in muttered voices I could not fail to hear, until I nudged their minds into allowing me through with no further complications. It was quite infuriating.
However, it was not so difficult tonight. I recieved 'the look' but was then waved through as I was expected. With a cold glance, I passed by the man and went into the club. It was loud, the music assaulting my senses and making me wish I had not come at all for a moment. I did not like such places. But none the less, Sybelle had summoned me and so I had come.
Pushing through the crowd, I could sense other immortals in the throng, some I knew, some I did not... and much to my surprise, I sensed one I had created. A mind closed to me, but a presense so familiar I did not need to read that mind to know who it was. I purposely avoided the dance floor as I made my way to the private room I had been told about.
Knocking lightly at the door, I waited patiently for Sybelle to grant me access.
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Post by Sybelle on Nov 12, 2006 2:26:49 GMT 1
Finishing my song, I got up and went to the door upon hearing the knock. I knew who it was and I smiled. I opened the door and smiled at Armand. "Hello. Come in please." I said.
It didn't take long before the crowds started chanting my name for me to play them some music. I mentally sent a message to the dj instructing them that I would be down in about three hours time.
I sat on the couch and patted it. " Come.. We should talk."
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Post by Armand II on Nov 12, 2006 2:35:04 GMT 1
"So your message informed me," I replied, seating myself beside her on the couch. I looked around the room, heard the crowd chanting her name, and I smiled faintly. "This, this acclaim, is what I wanted for you."
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Sybelle
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Post by Sybelle on Nov 12, 2006 2:55:31 GMT 1
"I know...And I'm sorry for being a bitch towards you. Will you forgive me? I play here nightly. My crowd follows me. But I mainly play the Appassionat at this time hoping you will come to me. You never do. And yes...I am with Santino now." I whispered to him as if ashamed.
I missed him.
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Post by Armand II on Nov 12, 2006 5:27:46 GMT 1
I reached out, grasped her hand lightly in my own. "And I apologize for not always coming when you had need of me. Simply, my dear, I did not know. Please believe me when I say to you that had I known you were in need of my help, I would have come immediately."
A faint, sad smile crossed my face. "You know, you do remind me so much of my dear, long lost Bianca."
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Post by Sybelle on Nov 12, 2006 7:02:20 GMT 1
I looked at him and smiled faintly when he took my hand and said that I reminded him of Bianca. I had met her once but it was in passing. "Why do you say that?" I asked him curiously.
I adjusted myself and moved to where I could lay my head on his shoulder and atleast have a half decent hug out of him with his one arm around my shoulder. I missed Armand dearly. Howerver her was lost to me.
"Hows Daniel?"
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Post by Armand II on Nov 12, 2006 7:16:35 GMT 1
I opened my mouth to answer her question about Bianca, nestling her comfortably against me, when she asked her second question and stopped me abruptly. Daniel... I had not truly seen him in so long, and now he was here, in this very building.
"Daniel... I am trusting is well," I answered slowly. "But if you truly wish to know, you may always go and ask him yourself. He was out on the dance floor making an ass of himself when I came in."
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Post by Sybelle on Nov 12, 2006 16:56:52 GMT 1
I was comfortable and nodded when he told me to try to ask him the next time I went down to teh floor. "So why did you say that I remind you of Bianca? I met her only once. In passing." I said to him.
He seemed so sad and I could feel it. What was wr ong with him? Would he tell me?
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Post by Armand II on Nov 17, 2006 3:00:38 GMT 1
Quickly I banished Daniel from my mind. "Oh, Bianca... yes. You remind me of her, because you have her hair, and there is a great deal of her spirit in you as well. She always seemed so docile, generous, kind... but she would not break when pushed. And she was utterly devoted to those she loved."
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Post by Sybelle on Nov 17, 2006 3:58:52 GMT 1
I smiled at him. "Armand...do you think that we'll ever be close like you and Daniel or you and Bianca are/were? I just feel so left out sometimes because you're always with Daniel and you never seem to visit me anymore. I miss the nights we used to share in the bathtub together. I miss the nights when you would lie with me and make me go to sleep when I didn't want to." I said to him.
I pulled away from him and went to the window to look out. I was hurting now. My heart was exploding. Hurt. Broken. I doubted he would ever do these things wiht me again. "I never knew anything outside of you." I whispered and wiped the crimson tear that was now falling from my eyes.
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Post by Armand II on Nov 17, 2006 5:02:25 GMT 1
I stood and went to her, slipping my arms about her shoulders and pulling her back against my chest. "Sybelle, I... have not seen Daniel in some time, until I arrived here tonight. He and I are anything but close. And as for Bianca, I miss her terribly, but yes, we were very close. I believe the difference in that relationship is that... I am a very different person now than I was when I knew Bianca. I do not know if I am capable of getting that close to anyone anymore, as much as I may wish to do so."
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Post by Sybelle on Nov 17, 2006 6:06:20 GMT 1
All I ever wanted was someone to accept me and love me as their own. He was the only one blind to it. "I'm not your Sybelle anymore am I? Not the girl you left behidn with Marius. I've changed. I've blossomed into a beautiful woman before your eyes and now...now things arent' the same between us. Time has ripped us apart. You do not know how much I cried when you left me with Marius after you realized he turned me. I felt like you hated me." I said to him.
I leaned into him and rested my head gainst his shoulder. The crowds could look up and see nothing but a mirror. Two way windows worked wonders when you could watch others but they couledn't watch you.
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Post by Armand II on Nov 20, 2006 18:30:00 GMT 1
"Hated you? No, I could never hate you," I soothed, resting my cheek against her soft hair. "I hated him for what he had done. It was never my wish or intention to have you become a vampire. I wanted better for you than that. Perhaps leaving as I did was not the most prudent thing I could have done, but at that time I was more out of my mind than in, I'm afraid. I could think of no other reaction."
I sighed, glancing over her shoulder out at the crowd. My eyes involuntarily scanned for a certain blond head on the dance floor, but failed to see it. I was not certain if I was relieved or disappointed. But it was probably for the best- he and I could save our painful reunion for a time when I was not already reeling from one.
"I would not be parted from you, Sybelle," I continued. "I wish always to be in your life and to have you in mine. Yes, things are no longer as they were and cannot ever be so again. You have changed, there is no denying that fact, and I am glad for it. You are stronger now. I only wish you were happier as well."
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Post by Sybelle on Dec 7, 2006 13:23:47 GMT 1
I looked at him and thought for a moment. "I am happy. Santino is giving me all that I want. He's taking the place I had reserved for you." I said to him coldy.
I turned away from him and went away from the window to sit on the couch. I was hurt. He didnt' understand me. "Stronger yes. I am stronger in the fact that I can live without you. And without Benji. And without Marius. I learned this all on my own. And now that my anger boils even more than it did before...I'm glad I learned that one from Santino. Go to him Armand." I said to him.
I walked over to Armand and said, "You're torturing yourself by being up here. Go to him. Go to Daniel. You're upsetting me. I see it all over your face and you're not even trying to hide it. You've proven yourself to me that you're clearly still in love with him. Don't let me hold you back."
Tears filled my eyes and I turned from him. "Go...."
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Post by Armand II on Mar 13, 2007 2:23:28 GMT 1
"I will always love him, my dear Sybelle," I confessed, looking at her sadly, a faint frown crossing my face. "He is my only blood child. But you, you are also my child. My beautiful and beloved prodigy. I am glad you have found strength. I... Santino has a way of giving that to his ... chosen few. I learned my own strength from him. I cannot protest it."
I crossed the room, sat beside her. "But Daniel will always be out there. I made sure of it. I do not, however, know how often I will be able to be with you, given your new lover."
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Post by Sybelle on Mar 18, 2007 3:39:06 GMT 1
"The damage is done Armand. I thought that I loved you with my whole being. I thought that like many of these other girls that you were my fairy tale ending. Sadly it isn't so. It's Santino. And I'm surprised it's not bothering you that I am with him instead of with someone better. Perhaps like Lestat de Lioncourt?" I said to him as he sat next to me.
I was being harsh. Maybe I should apologize?
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